d nite, 22 feb,
i tried my bes to come back to kl so to meet him but when i able to make it, i changed my mind somehow. i plan not to c him cuz i afraid of d feeling. i worried my nite wil b a rainy nite but on the other hand, i fil like seeing him..wat a incompatible feeling..at las, i did meet him as he said he fil like seeing me too..b4 i left, v hav a chat. my mind was empty..didn't no wat shud i say..d steps i take into my hse were heavier den usual..d feeling came again..definitely dis wil b our las meet..den v talk on d phone at nite..wat was my feeling tat moment??fil bad again..but stil enjoy d moment..
23 feb,
i was awaken by his morning msg..d feeling getting stronger n stronger..when d clock reached 0955..i took a deep breath *it's time* i stop myself frm crying..i did control..i really did..but i failed to..evtin was out of my control..my mind was empty for d whole noon..*complicated feeling-loh loh luin* it remains til i got his cal..i fil much better juz like one of the rocks was taken out frm my heart..i fil bad to bear wit it..yet i noe i nid to..it's a process which is necessary for me to go thru..i did think of wat if i nvr accept him frm d beginning??wil i fil differently??but i no if i din accept him, i won hav such sweet time tat i appreciate lots..hav no regret..
once again,
thank you for helping, for doing and for sharing.
thanks for excusing my faults, for understanding and for caring.
thank you for the laughter, for loving and giving.
thanks for bringing sweet memory.
thank you for evtin, CRABy-*get me??* i juz tot of dis new nick..like it not??feed back pls.. =)
n take gd k of urself pls..
~Lv~
4 comments:
hmmm...
i duno whether did i made da rite decision to see u tht nite...bt i think i did right...holding to every chance i hav to spend wif u...
is been tough for me to leave u all alone back here n i goin so far away....but i know u understands...
u know i been strugglin to make up my mind whether to confess n finally i did which for now i stil thinks is a right decision.nv regretted it...
for me..tht nite is so tough for me...at morning when i was headin to da airport...man..da feeling wasnt rite...i should say..lucky sum frens was together coming back to melbourne..if not the feeling gonna get worst...however...i overcome it n i am waiting for da time i get back n see u...wait for me k??
lets work together to get us back together k??hope u do good when i am not beside u le....boring thn find frens le..u got ur bunch of buddies i think willingly to help u de....
not oni u thanks me...i indeed wanna thanks u for giving me everythin le...ur love is so much appreciated...
craby...nv tot u will think tis name de..but it seems nice le...special le...i remember da meaning de..
do take care of urself k...eat more le...if not i start nagging lar...
care, Roy
anyway, all d bad feeling had been past now..d thing left wil b d sweet memory..rite??anytin else left??hmmm..of course..lets work together..is our relationship steady enuf to overcome all d obstacles??
definitely i'll take gd k of myself n bcum fei fei bak bak while waiting for u..haha..make sure u do recognise me when u back oh..or else......herh~~!!!!!!punish u to kneel on durian skin.. =P
~Lv~
hm....
yea...all da bad will leave eventually n happy moments will take place...i duno whether are we stable enuf...yet wat i wanna do is to do my best to make this goes as wat i wanted...believe me n believe urself...
how would i dare to not recognise u le..u my ******* le...if dun recognise u...recognise who jek..hehe...u hav to..no no..u MUST take care le k...kneel durian skin??hmm..will ya???will ya??haha...but u got no chance to do so also le...wakakkaa
With love,
Roy
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