My darl, i noe how do you feel when ur bro neglect you n totally forgot to care of ur feeling. mayb u can try to think of sumtin happy that ur bro did for you when u feel geram?? sometimes things jz go like tat. i blif that bro wil know someday. dis is for sure~~ perhaps i shud mail dis blog to ur bro n let him noe ur feeling. i noe u scared that u will argue with him once u raise up d issue. frm wat i perceive, i noe ur bro sure wil say u if u raise up d issue also. u choose to remain silent jz bcuz u wan to remain evtin peacefully rite??
im nt gd in comforting ppl actually. tat's y sumtimes will tot of sum so called 'IQ' yet silly ques to make u laugh. that's my main purpose. like to hear ur laughter. try to ease ur annoy. dum all ur negative feeling into dust cart n let it take away frm u. i dun1 there's sumtin to bug u always. i wish what i been doing do help u, make u happy. bro neglect u, i won; bro dun care u, i care u ^^ but how oso he stil gt care u sometimes hor?? nt entirely forget bout u hor??
im here always to listen to u, to accom u, to overcome the pro with u.
for me, ur heart is the best~!! i wana declare u as top bf once again bcuz.... ^^
1. u r loving
2. u r understanding
3. u r caring
4. u r kind
BUT most importantly...bcuz...
5. U R MINE
nt bcuz of wanted to comfort u but jz telling u d truth. dun bear in mind of wat bro said tat might hurt u k?? I AM HERE TO HEAL UR WOUND~~ i learn nursing b4 le. dun play play ah. =D
i use shit shit buried ur dissatisfaction adi. cant dig them out k?? dis is an order!!! that's the end of it !!!
*Lv*
Monday, April 28, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
my new doll~~~~
see~~~ my new doll my new doll. it's a dinosaur lehhh.. so proud with it~~ keke..
this post should be posted on 8 April but delayed til today due to insufficient of time i have. keke.
Tuesday, 8 April
when i finish class n reach home, the time i wanted to park my car in, i found there is something on the floor at car porch, then i was wondering, there is ntg when i go out just now right?? who so bad throw rubbish at my hse?? then i go down frm the car n pick up. (haha, detail enough lehh) the nearer im to the thing, the clearer i can see what is it. it's a parcel frm my honey darlinh~~!!!! duh......... so happy even before i open the parcel. ehehehehehehe.. was keep smiling n looking at the parcel, aha... apa tu ha?? then i open up slowly. weeeeeeeee, gt many letters la. read read read (feel so sweet, smile hanging on my face).. then i was thinking.. apa easter dino?? what's that?? because i didn't realise that the doll is actually a dino. until i open the package and...ouhhhhh..this is what he's mentioning~~!! so so so so happy.. so surprise when i got the parcel. see!! my darl can be very sweet & creative geeeee ^^ thank you very much darl darl. i like the dino so muchieee.. it's so cute~~!!!!
initially i don't plan to tell him and send him a reply but i've no times for past few days. besides, im thinking which service should i use. the malaysia post really inefficient ga. last year i sent him a card til now he got ntg. aish. moreover, peng just told me that she paid 100 plus for PosLaju to send a parcel to Aust and it took up to more than one week to arrive to the receiver. this decrease my trust on government post le. what else i can use if i want a normal post?? because express post is expensive and it's impossible for me to use it everytime i want to send him letter ah. definitely i will bankrupt~~!!! aiyorh, anyone has any idea?? fan sei me larrr...
*Lv*
oh yea, i changed the template because want to fit the pic of our new bee buu.. duno which to choose.
Monday, April 7, 2008
tomorrow..
after read his blog las nite n i did sumtin tat i hav nvr done before on my msn. ^^ nvr think of d conse b4 i do. there's really some ppl very free out there and wil peep ur pm. why?? pm change will giv their notification?? how come they r so alert ge?? hmm, back to main topic...
he's right.. none of us is suffering in this relationship ah.. y talk til like vy cham?? hehe.
darl, there's sumtin i always want to apologize to u. sry for keeping u under d desk for so long time. i noe it's unfair to u but.. u shud noe my situation clearly rite?? i cant reveal dis relationship to my family frm d beginning bcuz mom wil be strictly disagree yet i let her knows bout u day by days. let her see how much this guy cares bout me, how much is this guy willing to stand her daughter's bad temper, how much this guy sayang me.. til now, although i nvr admit to her that im together with you, but i guess mom shud be roughly noe what happen already =) few months more k?? after i grad den i will tel her by myself. dui bu qi ah dear dear.. i really proud of having you as my fan shu bao... ^^
hmm, i gues it's normal for me to worry when he go out to drink o club but since his main purpose is to accom bro, i cant do anytin wit it. impossible i ask him to ignore his bro. susahkan dia aje.. let him go lor.. he go accom his bro oni wat..
he's right.. none of us is suffering in this relationship ah.. y talk til like vy cham?? hehe.
darl, there's sumtin i always want to apologize to u. sry for keeping u under d desk for so long time. i noe it's unfair to u but.. u shud noe my situation clearly rite?? i cant reveal dis relationship to my family frm d beginning bcuz mom wil be strictly disagree yet i let her knows bout u day by days. let her see how much this guy cares bout me, how much is this guy willing to stand her daughter's bad temper, how much this guy sayang me.. til now, although i nvr admit to her that im together with you, but i guess mom shud be roughly noe what happen already =) few months more k?? after i grad den i will tel her by myself. dui bu qi ah dear dear.. i really proud of having you as my fan shu bao... ^^
hmm, i gues it's normal for me to worry when he go out to drink o club but since his main purpose is to accom bro, i cant do anytin wit it. impossible i ask him to ignore his bro. susahkan dia aje.. let him go lor.. he go accom his bro oni wat..
[i guess we are a couple tht knows each other way better thn sum couples in years of relations. this i am confident!am i right?] quote frm his blog.
yea yea yea, he is right. our 15 months like 15 years ah dun play play..hahahaha..nvr realise tat it's 15 months adi. so fas... he can always read my mind but sometimes... sure gt exception ge ma.. mana blh read everything in my mind ge.. no fun jor lor like tat.. kaka.. as the same as him, trust is the main thing in a relation. if there's trust, happiness wil come continuously. right??
darl, nid nt blame urself for nt being beside my when i sick d le.. im getting better n will b fully recover sooon.. buttttt, nex time when im sick n u repeat ur mistake again~~~~~~ wsh ur butt clean clean n wait for me.. whack til open flower den u noe~!!!!!! =D
yea yea yea, he is right. our 15 months like 15 years ah dun play play..hahahaha..nvr realise tat it's 15 months adi. so fas... he can always read my mind but sometimes... sure gt exception ge ma.. mana blh read everything in my mind ge.. no fun jor lor like tat.. kaka.. as the same as him, trust is the main thing in a relation. if there's trust, happiness wil come continuously. right??
darl, nid nt blame urself for nt being beside my when i sick d le.. im getting better n will b fully recover sooon.. buttttt, nex time when im sick n u repeat ur mistake again~~~~~~ wsh ur butt clean clean n wait for me.. whack til open flower den u noe~!!!!!! =D
we are heading to a even better tomorrow~~!!!! with more love and understand.......
*Lv*
Sunday, April 6, 2008
wat i think........
darling...just finished reading ur post n tot of blogging sumthin. i guess there is a slight misunderstand btw us?is not like our relation suffer anything. most of the stuff is just me myself wanting to be the good boyfriend. i do know that no1 is perfect but i know n i want u to be proud of me. i duno wat exactly i wanna say so this post might looks a bit messy?hehe..paiseh oh...
yea.since been back to melb. things are getting a bit messy n out of hand at sum times. just being back seeing bro in such a condition do makes me worry. always parent think.i am here thn they no worries d....bro wanna out like every weekend, i tried pursuing him like not to go drinking all the time, just dun listen n wanna go...even if i dun go, he wanna go alone makes me feel bad. at a point, am worry she might be angry or worry or watever a gf will feel when her bf goes out drinking n partying...
ya darl, i am not disappointed wif u..i am just worrying that i disappoints u. confidence??why not in urself? coz i am so far away?so u worry?i guess is a right thing to worry also rite?i understand ur worry n ur lost in confidence. that's y i am trying to help u gain the confidence. seeking confirmation is not 1 way i am using to gain confidence. we been together for more thn a yr already..is going into 15months already.i guess we are a couple tht knows each other way better thn sum couples in years of relations. this i am confident!am i right?
besides being together with full of trust of the other half, being together is also about the comfortable and the happiness that both parties got rite? that's y i always emphasise on being truth to us and to share watever we have in mind. i really want u to happy.ya..like u say.happiness n days would only be the best when we work together rite??
oh ya le darl.. i guess u really misunderstand on the confirmation on facebook. coz in my update list.i saw a fren change his status ma...so i tot..eih...i can change mine as well, so i went n update. thn i update jor there write will get confirmation from u before they display. thn ma like tht le. dun feel blank pls...yen fill in the doubts for u k?
being writting a lot jor le. last thing, me really wanna say sorry to u le darl for not being wif u when ur sick. i know is my bad and i aint gonna push the responsibility to any1 else but myself.hmmm hmmm...care care ya~~
*no1 is perfect but our world will be perfect if we understand each other, loving towards each other n share watever we hav and everything will be very very fine~
Roy
yea.since been back to melb. things are getting a bit messy n out of hand at sum times. just being back seeing bro in such a condition do makes me worry. always parent think.i am here thn they no worries d....bro wanna out like every weekend, i tried pursuing him like not to go drinking all the time, just dun listen n wanna go...even if i dun go, he wanna go alone makes me feel bad. at a point, am worry she might be angry or worry or watever a gf will feel when her bf goes out drinking n partying...
ya darl, i am not disappointed wif u..i am just worrying that i disappoints u. confidence??why not in urself? coz i am so far away?so u worry?i guess is a right thing to worry also rite?i understand ur worry n ur lost in confidence. that's y i am trying to help u gain the confidence. seeking confirmation is not 1 way i am using to gain confidence. we been together for more thn a yr already..is going into 15months already.i guess we are a couple tht knows each other way better thn sum couples in years of relations. this i am confident!am i right?
besides being together with full of trust of the other half, being together is also about the comfortable and the happiness that both parties got rite? that's y i always emphasise on being truth to us and to share watever we have in mind. i really want u to happy.ya..like u say.happiness n days would only be the best when we work together rite??
oh ya le darl.. i guess u really misunderstand on the confirmation on facebook. coz in my update list.i saw a fren change his status ma...so i tot..eih...i can change mine as well, so i went n update. thn i update jor there write will get confirmation from u before they display. thn ma like tht le. dun feel blank pls...yen fill in the doubts for u k?
being writting a lot jor le. last thing, me really wanna say sorry to u le darl for not being wif u when ur sick. i know is my bad and i aint gonna push the responsibility to any1 else but myself.hmmm hmmm...care care ya~~
*no1 is perfect but our world will be perfect if we understand each other, loving towards each other n share watever we hav and everything will be very very fine~
Roy
sharing...
i know he has lots of troubles to settle after he back to melb. tats y i din rush him to blog. i know blog depends on feeling and ling gam. no ling gam blog will 'tasteless' one ^^
honestly speaking, after reading his blog, i did meditate for quite long time but i've no exact answer for him. i duno whether is he disappoint me often o my requirement is too high, i duno whether is im nt confident wit him o im nt confident wit myself. i guess both of the answer will probably be the latter ones. my requirement too high.. i dun hav confidence in myself..
i used to think alot before i require him to do sumtin for me. am i good enuf to request? do i do the same thing to him? and i must make sure myself frm repeating the same mistake. i dun wan him to have the feeling that im a person that merely use mouth and without action.. i dont want to be like this. and this is main the reason for me to self-evaluate always.
i keep wondering why he request a confirmation on our relationship on my facebook. is that one of his ways that wanted me to feel more secure with him? that's the only idea that get into my mind. did i get it right?? *wondering* fill in the blank for me pls...
dear, u need nt to try to be a perfect boyfriend as nobody is perfect in the world. im not a perfect girlfriend also. i've my own temper. sometimes will chi sin also and might drive you mad. im working vy hard to improve our relationship, overcome all the hardships. the days will become wonderful only when both parties work together.
honestly speaking, after reading his blog, i did meditate for quite long time but i've no exact answer for him. i duno whether is he disappoint me often o my requirement is too high, i duno whether is im nt confident wit him o im nt confident wit myself. i guess both of the answer will probably be the latter ones. my requirement too high.. i dun hav confidence in myself..
i used to think alot before i require him to do sumtin for me. am i good enuf to request? do i do the same thing to him? and i must make sure myself frm repeating the same mistake. i dun wan him to have the feeling that im a person that merely use mouth and without action.. i dont want to be like this. and this is main the reason for me to self-evaluate always.
i keep wondering why he request a confirmation on our relationship on my facebook. is that one of his ways that wanted me to feel more secure with him? that's the only idea that get into my mind. did i get it right?? *wondering* fill in the blank for me pls...
dear, u need nt to try to be a perfect boyfriend as nobody is perfect in the world. im not a perfect girlfriend also. i've my own temper. sometimes will chi sin also and might drive you mad. im working vy hard to improve our relationship, overcome all the hardships. the days will become wonderful only when both parties work together.
alright, talk lil bit bout my job now.
finish my 4 days job finally. this time really work til very cham oh. sick til ki siao stil work. sigh. really fat chin hon til ki siao already. i thought my sick was getting better at that time yet........it goes another way round. grrrr~~!!! as what he blog, i was bit unhappy when i need some support and he was not being ard. only mahjong and friends. i guess this is normal for me to feel upset hor?? seriously speaking, i nvr ever had such serious sick before. fever, flu, cough all come to me together. felt like dying man~~ especially the time my head gonna burst.. summo i working hours is a one round of the time. =(
thou it was a easy one, but i need to wake up at 5 sumtin every morning and work work work til 6sumtin in the evening. become sandwich in the lrt and take all the way frm KLCC back to Kelana jaya. all together 15 stations. alone for 15 stations. can you imagine?? drove me crazy~~!!!!!!
Saturday, April 5, 2008
updates!!!!
HIhi my dear baby n my lil blog....
i know is my bad...being lost for such a long time...got a few things to blog n haven been bloggin for quite sum time...wat's my reason for not blogging?i guess is cause i came back to melbourne, not having my own computer even makes me dun feel like using the computer.i duno y..mayb is jz me. being dor shi lor.i know darl hav been wanting me to blog for her but i always disappoint her.it do gets me thinking, do i disappoint her often? is she feeling safe wif me?is she confident wif me?i know sumtimes my actions do contradict with wat i promise to her.not being to do wat i say always makes her sad. i been trying and will keep tryin. trying not only to improve myself but to build her confidence on me. i hope i can i will try~
is kinda late now.just finish steamboat n a small house party.asking sum frens over n hav a party like a house warming. been busy coz went out buy the food thn prepare thn enjoy myself. she is kinda sick today n i knew it. was kinda busy so sms her lesser today. i guess she wants my support on her today n i given her the minimum which makes her sad n a lil unhappy perhaps?i duno wat should i do. i dun wan her to get angry n sad. i hav always say to myself. my girlfriend is for me to love, to care, to giv her all the support n to be wif her at all times. i just want her to know. i am always there for her.
not too good in words expression. just hopes she got the meaning. bro just bought half his computer parts today. i guess he will get his new pc in a short while. i will finally hav my own which i can do my own things. the losing of a self pc really affect me. not able to concentrate on work. hope after whil this will be gone n life will back to normal.
i know she always wants to earn more to travel.just wan her to know.i am always here for support n even if she doesnt earn enough...dun worry..i am here.just dun make urself too tired or 'san fu'. i really will heart ache de...really de.ur sick haven recover after sum time. hope u really take good care. rmb ur jacket, tissue n medicine to work ya. this might helps u ease ur sickness
do take care...wait for my blogging on other things...nothin much i guess...life is plain here..will update u wif watever happens to me k?take care darling
*darling. my love for u haven faded after so long n will nv be. i am always loving u like the 1st day we been together. knowing the hard work we use to get together..makes me work harder to keep our relation as well as to makes u a happy lady. i might not be a perfect boyfriend but i will try to be one.....
{RoY}
i know is my bad...being lost for such a long time...got a few things to blog n haven been bloggin for quite sum time...wat's my reason for not blogging?i guess is cause i came back to melbourne, not having my own computer even makes me dun feel like using the computer.i duno y..mayb is jz me. being dor shi lor.i know darl hav been wanting me to blog for her but i always disappoint her.it do gets me thinking, do i disappoint her often? is she feeling safe wif me?is she confident wif me?i know sumtimes my actions do contradict with wat i promise to her.not being to do wat i say always makes her sad. i been trying and will keep tryin. trying not only to improve myself but to build her confidence on me. i hope i can i will try~
is kinda late now.just finish steamboat n a small house party.asking sum frens over n hav a party like a house warming. been busy coz went out buy the food thn prepare thn enjoy myself. she is kinda sick today n i knew it. was kinda busy so sms her lesser today. i guess she wants my support on her today n i given her the minimum which makes her sad n a lil unhappy perhaps?i duno wat should i do. i dun wan her to get angry n sad. i hav always say to myself. my girlfriend is for me to love, to care, to giv her all the support n to be wif her at all times. i just want her to know. i am always there for her.
not too good in words expression. just hopes she got the meaning. bro just bought half his computer parts today. i guess he will get his new pc in a short while. i will finally hav my own which i can do my own things. the losing of a self pc really affect me. not able to concentrate on work. hope after whil this will be gone n life will back to normal.
i know she always wants to earn more to travel.just wan her to know.i am always here for support n even if she doesnt earn enough...dun worry..i am here.just dun make urself too tired or 'san fu'. i really will heart ache de...really de.ur sick haven recover after sum time. hope u really take good care. rmb ur jacket, tissue n medicine to work ya. this might helps u ease ur sickness
do take care...wait for my blogging on other things...nothin much i guess...life is plain here..will update u wif watever happens to me k?take care darling
*darling. my love for u haven faded after so long n will nv be. i am always loving u like the 1st day we been together. knowing the hard work we use to get together..makes me work harder to keep our relation as well as to makes u a happy lady. i might not be a perfect boyfriend but i will try to be one.....
{RoY}
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
update...
hmm, sleep til half way wake up and unable to fall back into my dream :( tot of haven't been updated my blog for quite some time, so...
hmm, started my part time job 2 weeks ago. started my plan of saving money since march. started to think of how to get more n more money in this few months so i can go travel more after i grad. is nt an easy thing. money money money.. brain full with questions of how to find more money. what biz can earn lots? hehe. at least i must have few thousands savings in order to achieve part of my dream in this year :) the pay for the part time job im doing is nt very high actually. luckily the agent is easy going.. else i pek pao em lou lu.. hehe. thou i need money but i won't lost myself while looking for money.
hmm, gt job for this week again. work as IT crew?? meh oh. i duno much bout IT la but the agent keep asking me not to worry cuz ntg much to do and just sit there til there's pro occur. aish.. work for 4 days wor.. can remain peaceful for all 4 days?? aiyaya.. gotta pray hard d.. dis job nt vy gd because gotta reach KL convenction centre at 730 MORNING~~~ morning ah.. aiyorrrr. summo gotta work til 7pm. arghhhhh.. hopefully can back earlier as wat the agent told me then. hopefully i can sit ther til fal asleep for all the 4 days den :p
aiyar.. hou sui em sui pin pin fever since ytd. nvr have such serious fever before. so suffer le. fuiyo. luckily getting better now. wish Lv get well soon ^^
eeeeee??? wheres another owner for this blog?? hmph!!!!!! disappear for so long?? how dare him!!!!! gotta spank his butt butttttttt d.. must be ganas jor... yiek yiek.. ouh, time to go back to sleep @_@
have a nice day~~~~
*Lv*
hmm, started my part time job 2 weeks ago. started my plan of saving money since march. started to think of how to get more n more money in this few months so i can go travel more after i grad. is nt an easy thing. money money money.. brain full with questions of how to find more money. what biz can earn lots? hehe. at least i must have few thousands savings in order to achieve part of my dream in this year :) the pay for the part time job im doing is nt very high actually. luckily the agent is easy going.. else i pek pao em lou lu.. hehe. thou i need money but i won't lost myself while looking for money.
hmm, gt job for this week again. work as IT crew?? meh oh. i duno much bout IT la but the agent keep asking me not to worry cuz ntg much to do and just sit there til there's pro occur. aish.. work for 4 days wor.. can remain peaceful for all 4 days?? aiyaya.. gotta pray hard d.. dis job nt vy gd because gotta reach KL convenction centre at 730 MORNING~~~ morning ah.. aiyorrrr. summo gotta work til 7pm. arghhhhh.. hopefully can back earlier as wat the agent told me then. hopefully i can sit ther til fal asleep for all the 4 days den :p
aiyar.. hou sui em sui pin pin fever since ytd. nvr have such serious fever before. so suffer le. fuiyo. luckily getting better now. wish Lv get well soon ^^
eeeeee??? wheres another owner for this blog?? hmph!!!!!! disappear for so long?? how dare him!!!!! gotta spank his butt butttttttt d.. must be ganas jor... yiek yiek.. ouh, time to go back to sleep @_@
have a nice day~~~~
*Lv*
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