Feel of blogging

Oh dear.. the feel of writing diary is back again.. or i should say, the feel is always there.. just that i used different way.. had a software in the phone previously which called memoirs and had few entry about daily life, about forever 26th birthday celebration.. however, I have really no idea where did I back up everything before the phone send to reformat.. and now.. everything gone! Hmph! So decided back here as it's most secured. It won't gone missing despite of whatever..

Life goes on..

It's ALIVE

After 2 years and 2 months, i'm back! Work . Live . Play Lv

someday...

someday, if i can't stand this anymore, please do not blame me for leaving nor giving up.. i'm just an very ordinary girl. please do not expect me to take up that much of stress..

Our 4th anniversary ^^

I was really happy for this 31-12-2010. my happy and exciting mood keep going from the morning until the night. all because of my sor sor darling. he really made up my day :)

DARL, I'M STILL HAPPY AND EXCITED NOW :D

1. This is what i get from Darl during Singapore trip. He seems like wanting to get me a ring for quite some time and finally he did :D i really like the design - SIMPLE & NICE (my style)

2. I always take this as my anniversary gift and the ring as X'mas gift from Darl but he always take it as my X'mas gift and the ring as random gift >.<
3.Just because i mentioned during Singapore trip, "bee, seems like i don't receive flower from you for long time already." and i got this from him. such an awfully sweet darl i'm having (*^.^*)

I got the above 3 items before 31 Dec 2010 and i was more than happy to receive all. i really didn't expect to get more pressie on this day but Darl surprised me to the max ^^ i received 5 pressies from him on anniversary day itself. my god...... please calm me down!

4. Darl insisted to get this for me as my face condition getting bad recently. i wonder what went wrong :(

5. I saw this many times in different puzzle shop. I still remember the first time i saw was in Hong Kong. That time darl refused to get for me as i got 2 puzzles and few items in HK already. and now, he got it for me as anniversary gift too. my god...


6. I don't only get one puzzle but two from Darl!!!!! This is the mini one which is new arrival and i never seen this one before. owww..... non stop surprise for me :D

7. i think because Darl knows that both of us will skip our lunch on anni day just for the buffet dinner and so he included this in my pressie. *warm warm sweet sweet*
8. Here comes the MAIN gift as darl's description. Aiks darl, all the gifts from you are main for me lar.. but this one.. grrr! spent so much again!! no wonder u kept asking me not to angry when i get it. but, thanks darl! i like it :)

'Dou goi' that darl used to present my presents. haha..

Photo of ONE BIG FAMILY! oh my god!! i got total of 8 gifts in the month of December! how lucky and fortunate i'm for having you, my dearest sweet darling.

Whoops, i missed out one...

Tadaaaaaa... ^^

Love you so much my dear teddy bear!

*at Komura, Corus Hotel*

*at Eu Wye's house*

You know what happen in late of the night? he really drink like nobody and get drunk, because i promised to fetch him home and overnight at his house. aish aish! first time i cleaned the car in the 3am morning, because my sweet potato vomited while on the way back to his house. Also, after clean the car, then i need to clean the toilet because he vomited again while he was bathing! oh my god! while i was cleaning all these, he was sleeping like a pig. furthermore, after i done all and ready to sleep, this sweet potato keep making noise and changing pose during his sleep. until i got no place to sleep and need to shift to another side of him >.< the noise really annoyed me. i so wish that i can kick him down from the bed but of course i didn't. yet i'm happy that i was smart. i found don't know what oil and rub on his nose and forehead. it helps i think, because he no longer make noise after that. 4am i got to sleep :( 6am the noise came again. mamamia, fong gor me please :) rub the oil again. then i get to sleep until 8am i think. he finally wake up from his nonsense sleep! hmph! then i started to nagging and mumbling and all the scolding, he was so embarrassed. haha! NOTI PIG!

you gotta behave well from now on, else i will make sure you get punishment from me! i'm not gonna let you play trick as this time anymore! hmph! I REALLY MEAN IT!!!




With love,
Lv

what a ... day...

Although i fall sick, i tried my best to go to work. felt so bad in the office as the air circulation was so bad there. mom came, mentioned about money again. Oh not again! she just mentioned it on last Saturday and it was holiday~ i told her patiently, can we not talk about office stuff, it's holiday! then her response was, i wanted to ask you yesterday but i forgot about it. alright, i got your advice. then today, please, it was just 11am. Saturday she mentioned, yesterday was Sunday, and it was just 11am on Monday. She expect me to collect all d debts in 2 hours? :( i don't understand. i really don't.

there's one business from bro's friend. i don't know is she over sensitive or what. people maybe just trying to be kind and to ease our hassle, he offered to pass the cheque to bro when meet up with him because according to him, there's still another business in balakong. so i'm alright with it. since he's bro's friend, i tried to be nice with him too. however, mom totally disagreed with my way of doing. MOM: why can't you offer yourself to go and collect? why must he wait? means he don't have money lar... else why should he postpone.. i said, your son supposed to meet him on last friday. if he hasn't prepared, he won't mention that your son didn't turn up at the end. i've clarified this with bro, and what he said was true. then i said, people just being nice to you, 'hao xin mei hao bao'. she get mad, she really mad. AGAIN, she openned up the office door, raise her voice and yelled, YEA YEA YEA, in your guys heart i'm always the bad mom, then she left >.< what have i done?

sigh, for me, different people have different way of doing. sometimes, i've faced enough during office hours, after office hours, i just wish to relax myself and enjoy the few hours in the night. but she never understand this, she will just keep mentioning as she wants, until she get mad herself. i wish i could ask her, if you feel better after you angry, after you scolded me, i'm willing to take those. but if you don't, you hurt yourself, you hurt me, so why must you do so? i don't understand, i really don't understand. you're repeating something that don't benefit any parties :(

i know, i know deep down in your heart, you feel imbalance maybe because u felt that nobody listens to you. you felt that you're not important in the family. this is what i got from my observation and rational thinking. therefore, you tried to get involved but the result not as your expectation, so you release your anger on me. i remember sis once said, for those who honour their parents, god will surely bless them. AMEN! bible tells me so as well. i always keep this in my heart, and whenever mom get mad on me, i will just keep silent. i just wish that after you release, you will feel better. no matter how much i don't like it, i will still bear with it. you will never understand my thinking, because yourself is bigger than everyone in your heart.

Do you realise about the consequences of this? i dare not to talk to you freely anymore. don't you feel that we're not as close as previously? like today, when i went there for dinner, i never speak a word. i just kept quiet from dinner time to newspaper time, from newspaper time til i left :'(

i suddenly thought that, i think you get angry more than last time. because there's one more person that not following you way of doing in this company.


IS IT THE TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE?



Love,
Lv

Boxing Day

Is been quite some time since i update myself

Is always her n her tht update..hope she doesnt get fed up. I do read yet i just did not pen my own words here

Saying of time flies, yes time flies and is end of the year once again. the memories brings me back to the time when i am still at Melbourne loitering around all the while doing nothing. everyday missing her n finally she is there to spend some time with me

It was really Airasia tht makes my life easier n hers as well..without it, i think i really cannot afford air tic for her...

And now..here we are..end of 2010 n stepping into 2011. Count n count..our relationship is going for another yr adi. making us being together for 4 yrs. really ups n downs all the while. we grown n we become better.thinking for a better tomorrow right my dear?

like what she say previous post. what did i achieve this year? i guess this year not a too good year. things tough.. not tht i am suffering, just not that good

business is not good. decline since the renovation and is going further down. making me worry yet i dont know what to do about it. i will still try my best to make it better. Just like i always think..family biz is always about family that disturb around. i hope for better n hope it comes.
When there is faith, there is hope.

relationship of coz better. everything seems to be good about us, just that slight issue with myself. have to figure it out. Opened up and try not to be resistant, just really hope it doesnt turn out to be bad to me. like i say, faith is always important

financial is still alright. doing fine, not tht i earn big, just moderate for current spending.
yet really need to look into it, find a way to earn more for a better tmr...not for myself only, but for people i care for

trips are great this yr, everything turns out to be great with my dear. everyone is happy. just that regret a little for not allowing her to shop to her max while at HK ( but dear we be going back k?)

2011 is gonna be great year for me, career n my love n my financial

Bali is nex yr, Taiwan is nex yr. really hope for a happy time. ^^

Singapore is our aim now. i hope we can achieve it. shouldnt be a prob for me just her.
hope she can convince them, i knw she is not happy with what she has currently.

As for me, going for corporate style working is good also..i hope to enhance my relationship n frenship all around. i do have lesser n lesser friends. n to be frank. i do not want my friends to be all the uncles n those people all around station. not that i dislike them, i jz hope to have more friends that is beneficial to me

I work my way up and i will i will i willl...

Happy new yr my dear

Terrible 21/12

big flower cat!

End of 2010

time flies and we're coming to the end of year 2010.

Achievement for this year?
My daily life - faced more hardship than last year, working scope & working environment changed drastically.

My travel history - went Chiang Mai, HK, Krabi, Singapore :)

My relationship - getting to another stage with fighting always. of course it's sweet fight ^_^

My friendship - more and more friends moved their career to Singapore. I've not many friend left. Moreover, i changed my job and i won't have any friends in this job.

My family - facing them 24/7. listen to them more. understand more and so, geram at them more :p

My finance - no shrinking yet no expand. it's actually does expand because i went to so many places yet no shrinking right? and, start touching with some shares. just earned a little :)

Planning in 2011?
-move my career to Sgp to gain more exposure?
-wedding on 11 - 11 - 11? :D LOL!
-to be filled in

Love,
Lv ^^

My life in Canaan since 23rd May 2010

Few months before the above said, I struggling so hard for not joining Canaan. I didn’t know how many litres of tears I’ve wasted on this matter. I wanted to explore more to the world outside, I wish I could expose to more industry. I fought so hard with my mom. I tried so hard not to, but there’s always this point and eventually I decided to sacrifice my outside world and join Canaan. “Family” for my FAMILY…

Until now, coming to 6 months, I’m still struggling with my tears always, facing all the harsh words. I don’t know is it because I seldom cry for the past years and now the tears tank is full so I cry always. Swollen eyes are what I get always in the next morning. From optimistic to pessimistic, from cheerful to cheerless, from patience to impatient, from happy to upset… all in me have changed.. to someone terrible. I HATE myself so much for failing to control.

Until my temper turn so bad, I even release my temper on darl sometimes. Pray deep down in my heart that it doesn’t affect our relationship at all as I really appreciate and cherish this relationship. Darl, I really don’t mean to do so. I’m depressed. I’ve no idea of what to do, I’ve no idea of what’s going on, I even lost myself. Please, don’t leave me alone. I can’t sustain if I’m alone. I need to fight in the war and I need your support so much.

Until there’re times that I don’t wish to go home. At least when I’m outside, I can be myself freely. I can talk freely, I can walk freely. I can be without burden at all.

Until there’re times that I don’t wish to talk when I’m at home, because I don’t know when will I get harsh words when I talk something others don’t like. I even thought of leaving home and work outside. Yet I know it's not as easy as well.

Before this, if you ask me, what’s the most regretful thing you’ve done in your life, I will answer you without hesitation, “nope” but now… my answer is different, and you know my answer.

Am I deserve to all this? My Lord, is this a way from you to train me? I always know that everything happens for a reason. But Lord, give me strength. I can’t sustain long if same situation remains… Lord, forgive my bad temper, forgive my weakness… Lord, be with me. Bring me back to the Cheerful Lv. I love myself so much in that way but not now. I love you Lord. Lead me on… Let me soar my wings like eagle. Lord, besides blessing me, shower your blessing upon darl darl also. I want to share my everything with him. Pray in Jesus name, Amen.

Love, Lv

-LOVE is the greatest thing of all-

Macao - Last Day 13 April 2010

HK Day 7

Ta daaa... We're back in Macao! As we reached hotel (Sintra) earlier than check in time, we went out to hunt for our lunch, snacks, tea..

We were fully charged and heading to try the 'shrimp noodle' by Cheong Kei but unfortunately... they were close for few days :(

then we went to Tim Fat Wun Cai Chi since there was a queue outside the shop.


While we were on the way walking back to the main street, we passed by this!!! It's famouse with wan tan!!! Rushed in to try without any hesitation :)Serious, it was nice. The fill was rich with meat. *jiap jiap jiap*

Then we went back to hotel and check in. oh my goodness, the room there was much more bigger than HK ones. After a short rest, we went out for food again :D seems like our Macao trip more on food yeh..

Margarette Egg Tart - very welcoming and always with queue. One of the ah sim there stop me from taking photo >.< *hurt me badly*
We then head to Hak Sar Tan aka Black Sand Beach by bus. I really didn't see why is it so famous as it's just a normal beach with some part of black colour sand. but because of my cutie darl, i found it interesting (*^_^*)


Ding Ding! Time for dinner! Thought of having our dinner at most famous Portugese Cafe in Macao but UNFORTUNATELY x2nd time.. the cafe is fully reserved!!! argh!!!! not again!!

With no choice, we proceed to our 2nd option, DUMBO!







Then passed by this! forced darl to try with me. sowie.... for stuffing so much food to my beloved pillow :D crab porridge! yum~

Then we tried Mok Yi Kei Gelatine *something special*,


Yummy Yummy FishBall *Slurrp*

Then we go to the grand casino nearby, *ops, forgot what's its name >.<*


Keep loitering around and back to Macao centre by Casino bus. Passed by Grand Lisboa when walking back to hotel.

ZzzZzz.. what a tiring and "full" day.. :)

*Lv*