sharing...

i know he has lots of troubles to settle after he back to melb. tats y i din rush him to blog. i know blog depends on feeling and ling gam. no ling gam blog will 'tasteless' one ^^

honestly speaking, after reading his blog, i did meditate for quite long time but i've no exact answer for him. i duno whether is he disappoint me often o my requirement is too high, i duno whether is im nt confident wit him o im nt confident wit myself. i guess both of the answer will probably be the latter ones. my requirement too high.. i dun hav confidence in myself..

i used to think alot before i require him to do sumtin for me. am i good enuf to request? do i do the same thing to him? and i must make sure myself frm repeating the same mistake. i dun wan him to have the feeling that im a person that merely use mouth and without action.. i dont want to be like this. and this is main the reason for me to self-evaluate always.

i keep wondering why he request a confirmation on our relationship on my facebook. is that one of his ways that wanted me to feel more secure with him? that's the only idea that get into my mind. did i get it right?? *wondering* fill in the blank for me pls...

dear, u need nt to try to be a perfect boyfriend as nobody is perfect in the world. im not a perfect girlfriend also. i've my own temper. sometimes will chi sin also and might drive you mad. im working vy hard to improve our relationship, overcome all the hardships. the days will become wonderful only when both parties work together.

alright, talk lil bit bout my job now.

finish my 4 days job finally. this time really work til very cham oh. sick til ki siao stil work. sigh. really fat chin hon til ki siao already. i thought my sick was getting better at that time yet........it goes another way round. grrrr~~!!! as what he blog, i was bit unhappy when i need some support and he was not being ard. only mahjong and friends. i guess this is normal for me to feel upset hor?? seriously speaking, i nvr ever had such serious sick before. fever, flu, cough all come to me together. felt like dying man~~ especially the time my head gonna burst.. summo i working hours is a one round of the time. =(

thou it was a easy one, but i need to wake up at 5 sumtin every morning and work work work til 6sumtin in the evening. become sandwich in the lrt and take all the way frm KLCC back to Kelana jaya. all together 15 stations. alone for 15 stations. can you imagine?? drove me crazy~~!!!!!!

look, how grand is the theatre.

now..........

look at the place i work~~~ yorh!!!!! sit on the carpet u know?? (one corner of the theatre above) but only for one day.. that's the only 2 pic i've taken.. THE END of the JOBBBB~~~~~~~~

*Lv*

updates!!!!

HIhi my dear baby n my lil blog....

i know is my bad...being lost for such a long time...got a few things to blog n haven been bloggin for quite sum time...wat's my reason for not blogging?i guess is cause i came back to melbourne, not having my own computer even makes me dun feel like using the computer.i duno y..mayb is jz me. being dor shi lor.i know darl hav been wanting me to blog for her but i always disappoint her.it do gets me thinking, do i disappoint her often? is she feeling safe wif me?is she confident wif me?i know sumtimes my actions do contradict with wat i promise to her.not being to do wat i say always makes her sad. i been trying and will keep tryin. trying not only to improve myself but to build her confidence on me. i hope i can i will try~

is kinda late now.just finish steamboat n a small house party.asking sum frens over n hav a party like a house warming. been busy coz went out buy the food thn prepare thn enjoy myself. she is kinda sick today n i knew it. was kinda busy so sms her lesser today. i guess she wants my support on her today n i given her the minimum which makes her sad n a lil unhappy perhaps?i duno wat should i do. i dun wan her to get angry n sad. i hav always say to myself. my girlfriend is for me to love, to care, to giv her all the support n to be wif her at all times. i just want her to know. i am always there for her.

not too good in words expression. just hopes she got the meaning. bro just bought half his computer parts today. i guess he will get his new pc in a short while. i will finally hav my own which i can do my own things. the losing of a self pc really affect me. not able to concentrate on work. hope after whil this will be gone n life will back to normal.

i know she always wants to earn more to travel.just wan her to know.i am always here for support n even if she doesnt earn enough...dun worry..i am here.just dun make urself too tired or 'san fu'. i really will heart ache de...really de.ur sick haven recover after sum time. hope u really take good care. rmb ur jacket, tissue n medicine to work ya. this might helps u ease ur sickness

do take care...wait for my blogging on other things...nothin much i guess...life is plain here..will update u wif watever happens to me k?take care darling

*darling. my love for u haven faded after so long n will nv be. i am always loving u like the 1st day we been together. knowing the hard work we use to get together..makes me work harder to keep our relation as well as to makes u a happy lady. i might not be a perfect boyfriend but i will try to be one.....

{RoY}

update...

hmm, sleep til half way wake up and unable to fall back into my dream :( tot of haven't been updated my blog for quite some time, so...

hmm, started my part time job 2 weeks ago. started my plan of saving money since march. started to think of how to get more n more money in this few months so i can go travel more after i grad. is nt an easy thing. money money money.. brain full with questions of how to find more money. what biz can earn lots? hehe. at least i must have few thousands savings in order to achieve part of my dream in this year :) the pay for the part time job im doing is nt very high actually. luckily the agent is easy going.. else i pek pao em lou lu.. hehe. thou i need money but i won't lost myself while looking for money.

hmm, gt job for this week again. work as IT crew?? meh oh. i duno much bout IT la but the agent keep asking me not to worry cuz ntg much to do and just sit there til there's pro occur. aish.. work for 4 days wor.. can remain peaceful for all 4 days?? aiyaya.. gotta pray hard d.. dis job nt vy gd because gotta reach KL convenction centre at 730 MORNING~~~ morning ah.. aiyorrrr. summo gotta work til 7pm. arghhhhh.. hopefully can back earlier as wat the agent told me then. hopefully i can sit ther til fal asleep for all the 4 days den :p

aiyar.. hou sui em sui pin pin fever since ytd. nvr have such serious fever before. so suffer le. fuiyo. luckily getting better now. wish Lv get well soon ^^

eeeeee??? wheres another owner for this blog?? hmph!!!!!! disappear for so long?? how dare him!!!!! gotta spank his butt butttttttt d.. must be ganas jor... yiek yiek.. ouh, time to go back to sleep @_@

have a nice day~~~~


*Lv*

in cooking mood today..

feel like blogging bout wat hav i done for today. hmm, wondering y i was so in cooking mood since las nite. d time i wanted to slip is bout 3am n chawanmushi keep appearing in my brain. keep thinking y those japanese rest can make til so smooth n i cant. i've tried to make 3 times previously. d 1st time i made, d chawanmushiiiiiii..... was so rough as chicken breast. describe as tree skin is bit exaggerate d. hehe. den 2nd time was over steamed. hehe. paiseh la. i duno it can be cooked in few mins. d 3rd time i din taste cuz was served to my BOsssy. d taste shud b too plain rite bosssy??? ^^ d texture stil rough hor?? but i can ensure tat its nt as rough as chicken breast.

today is d 4th time of making dis adi luuu.....afta i watch d wasabi mon amour series las nite, they said tat wan to make d egg to bcum soft n smooth, u nid to sift the egg b4 u steam. so i tried tat technic today. i sift twice. mom as my judge, she said stil nt smooth enuf. hmm, i gues i must sift ten times nex time d. hehe.

afta tat tot of chicken wings which are leftover frm my bbq b4 cny. gosh~!!! how long they have been kept in d freezer?? hmm, take out n found them bcum ice rock. tot of a CLEVER idea, expose them under d sun so they can be dissolved faster. haha. stupid thou.. afta tat open d wings BIG BIG n put into d oven n toast for 15 mins. wou.... looks great~~!!!! hehe. luckily d taste stil can consider as fresh. aiyar, i wanted to upload d pic of my chawanmushi n chicky ge la..but keep error..iskkk..

hmm, tot of making chawanmushi again tml. i must keep doin til i get a vy soft n smooth ones. i promised da shu to make him again nex time. gambate Lv~~!!!! ^-^ ouh.. eyes getting tired d. bedtime for me...nite nite darl, nite nite darl tummy, nite nite darl bean bean, nite nite darl ele, nite nite darl phant(muahaha-get me??), nite nite darl watermelon =P


*Lv*

bitter period for me...

been looking at the screen for few mins. before this, been thinking of whether want to blog or not for about an hour.

i duno where to start with.
i duno how to blog. mind is in a mess.
i duno whether can i sleep later not.
i duno how long i need in order to fully handle this feeling.
i duno how well i can do it.

BUT,
i wanted to blog despite of how messy my mind is.
i need to sleep so to make sure my body has enough rest.
i need to handle and overcome the feeling so to ease your worries.
i know i must and i will do it well with your support. i know you are always here to help me cope, to share your strength.

from end of nov till today, more than 3 months, meet frequently, almost can see both of us stick together for every meeting with frenz.

now, this gotta stop for few months till you come back.
what we can do everyday for this few months are sms, call n one more thing tat we didnt do previously, webcam n mic. but due to the pc isnt placed in my room, i guess we cant chat freely.

i helped you to keep things for the first time. went to your house yesterday and today. the feeling is so strong everytime i hug you especially today, i just couldnt control my eyes from getting red, yet i get to control them for nt flowing down. i must stay strong. i told myself i have to.

i just wanted to tell you,

dear darling craby dino baby,
you brought me infinity of happiness in these 3 months. not only for the past three months, but for all the time that we have been together. having you really bring me loads of sweet memories. you are there to pamper me with your love and your patience, i do appreciate this alot always. i know i been emotional and bad tempered sometimes but u nvr scold nor nag me for even a word. thanks baby. i really duno what else to say besides thank you. thank you thank you thank you very much baby...

i will try to cry less but please let me to at least release for awhile or else i will stand til very suffer.
i will take gd care of myself so to stay healthy. u must be the same k?? promise pls..
i will stay guai guai here, will have enough food, will have enough rest, will study hard. will stay healthy, stay happy. the same for you k?? promise again pls..

it's 12 something now. u will be arriving melbourne after 5 hours. duno what you are doing on the plane. started to miss you already. the feeling is extremely strong. im sure i will be missing you soooo deeply for the next few months. you own a very important position in my heart. care u lots. really wish that time can fly faster than usual so that we can meet again in short period.

dun feel like sleeping yet because definitely im gonna wet my pillow to9. how good it will be if i can just fall asleep once i lie down. sob sob.. din realise that i've written so long.

love you darl darl....



*Lv bao bei*
-oh yea baby, i gao dim the mic already. really setting problem. can talk to you on9 adi-

ME ME ME!!!!

HIHI my lil blog....

hehe..long time no blog le..me darling adi angry coz i din blog le..hmm hmm...to say true ah..i really not much time..even got thn bro using pc...i cant use much also le..hmmm....I PROMISE POSTS COMING K??

hehe...being in back to KL for around 3 months...time flies...is about time i go back...hmm hmmm..1 problem...i am gonna miss u so very the muchie...haih....hope we can stay happy happy always k?*muakkkk*

~Love you darling baby~

our first anniversary..

after rested for a month, time for me to start blog-ing. i should have blog-ed about this right after the celebration yet laziness keep bugging me. what a shame, this blog is only appearing after a month plus. i read my friend's blog this noon about her first anniversary then only i realised that i not yet blog about mine.

31 dec 2007 was our big day - our first anniversay. time flies and i don't even have the time to slow down and catch my breath. eyes blink and we have been together for 13 months and 10 days.

definitely headache will approach me whenever special event is around the corner. gotta screw my mind for what am i suppose to give him. argh~~!!! i guess everyone has the same thought as me.

okay, we met in the noon and... aha... he kept the bunch of flowers in his car. hmm~~~ nice smell ^^ roses and lily. he wasn't in good condition since days before but he told me he felt better in that morning. but...............

when i meet him, he looked tired and bit suffer, yet he kept telling me that he is ok. alright, trust him then. when we were heading to 1u, i was kinda worried about him. i wanted him to fully enjoy the celebration and so i asked him to seek for doctor first. doctor warned him not to have party, countdown that night and must have more rest because having fever. ouh... i decided to go back to my house and let him rest for few hours then only we go on with our plan if everything goes well on him.

that was the first time i take care of him when he fall sick. hmm, my pleasure~~!! =) this naughty big kid didn't want to cover with my blanket because he kept saying that it's hot but i insisted. end up i rolled him as a spring roll. NO objection~~!! =P after he rested and sweat, the fever gone and he felt much better. well done Lv~~ and so is the big kid ^-^

then we go on with his plan. he brought me to Vincenzo italian cuisine where located at one bangsar. hmm, i like the environment there.

here we are...



this is one of the appetizer - trio smoked salmon. it has three different taste and so it is called as 'trio'. i like this. it tasted good and will be recommended to those that favour salmon.

look nice right?? ^^


another appetizer - escargot with garlic butter sauce. i ordered this because he never try it before. hmm, the escargot were fresh enough and the taste is just nice.



one of the main course - sicilian vincenzo pizza. i thought this is their signature dishes but the taste was so so only.

too normal for this.


veal milanese - hmm, this tasted great. can try again next time.

chicken covered with bread crumbs and been fried.


we went to count down after that but i don't know where he brought me to. the only thing i can remember is there was somewhere in cheras. =)

frankly, this gonna be a sweet moment that will stay in my heart always. i do appreciate his effort lots. i know he tries to bring happiness to me always. so am i. whenever i hear his laughter, i feel happy too. all my worries will gone and feel relax. anyway, thanks darling dino. muakkkk..


*Lv*
p/s: gotta admit that i have bad technic in taking picture of food and caused the food look not so nice. hmm, will keep on learning.

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